Mindset

Looking back, all my entries have been more on photos so I feel that I should have an entry totally filled with words.

Funny how having been through 21 happy years only to feel less confident and satisfied with myself now, all due to work. i just cant really seemed to finish my things, cant do what I planned and make careless mistake here and there. All this made me feel less useful and competent in my work and probably left a not much dependable impression on others. Totally different from school days where everything is in my control and where projects are concern, my groupmates look to me for solution. Well maybe because we are peers, where no ranking of any sort is concern. I begin to learn more with each passing work day and feel that black and white at work is super important. Anyone can just push words to you and you will be the one eating the dead rat. The more I walk through work life the more I dread everyday, which is completely opposite from what i used to be. Confident, Happy, Positive and Satisfied with anything.

I'm already pretty thankful that my first step in the corporate world was in such a nurturing environment where all my colleagues were giving me the guidance I need, not those real political place. I can only say, politics does happen, but only minimal over here. Well, I'll just have to bite through all these and hope that the changes I done to my working pattern makes me a more efficient person. i hope to see a diff by next week.

Done with lamenting on my work, just glad to have a job. Lamenting on the blog is definitely a rare occassion. Lucky for me I still have support from all the wonderful people in my life and at every peaceful moment ie. taking a train/bus alone, i'll try to push happy notes to my head and think positive.

Whatever it is, we only live once, so I think we should relax, take it easy, for there is nothing that we can't do. Every problem has a solution, so don't fret but if there is a problem without a solution, fretting will be pointless too. Easier said than done but try, thats life.

Reflecting on all these years, I realised I've come such a long long way and gone through a lot. But i have to say, I'm really a lucky girl to have all my loved ones with me, I think thats more than enough. Always have to remind myself of how fortunate I am, as whatever mishap I have, i know someone out there must be taking things 100 times harder than what happened to me. must learn to be thankful.

Can't wait for the weekends to come, its a super long one for me!!! So awaiting Sentosa with my darling ladies. The sand, sea and sun!! Woohoo~ I missed school days, every bit of it.

Its ironic how I found fishing theraphuetic. I was fishing with neo at Bedok jetty on my stressfull week and slept (which always happened). Opening my eyes to the peaceful waves of blue sea and sky, cheers of people as my neo's bait got bitten and the breeze brushing my face. At that moment all tension and pressure was gone, I smiled and quickly took pictures and videos of all the friendly uncles and my neo. Mother nature is still my key to relaxation, the joy I felt cannot be describe, its kind of like a happy feeling from the bottom of my heart, or i could say scientifically it was probably a release of happy endorphins to make me feel that way. An unforgettable feeeling.

Oh well, i'm sleepy..

Till the next entry.. remember that happiness is now